March 4th

Dearest Ivan,

The day you were born was the day the sky changed from a winter sky into a spring sky.  We buried you today, the day the spring winds came.  The grass was half green, the trees hinting of pollen.  I imagine myself as a wrinkled old woman, still wearing your golden ring around my neck.  Dozens of springs lie ahead of me.  Thousands of days...  I will long to hold you and kiss your sweet cheek each and every one of them.  Like the world in winter, seemingly dead, you lie dormant.  But I know you live.  I know we will be together again.  I know you're looking down on us, my sweet angel.  I miss you.  I love you.

Love,
Your Mama
 

For Alana ...

I thought of you and closed my eyes,
And prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a Mother,
And I know I heard him say:
A mother has a baby,
This we know is true.
But, God, can you be a mother,
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can he replied,
With confidence in his voice.
I give many women babies,
When they leave is not thier choice.
Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for a day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But theres no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God,
I want my baby here.
He took a breath and cleared his throat,
And then I saw a tear.
I wish that I could show you,
What your child is doing today,
If you could see your child smile,
With other children who say:
We go to earth and learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My mommy set me free.
I miss my mommy oh so much,
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
"Mommy don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I'm here."
So you see my dear sweet one,
Your children are Ok.
Your babies are here in My home,
They'll be at heavens gate for you.
So now you see what makes a mother.
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of,
Right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realize you are a mother,
until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day,
And you'll know that you're the best one!
~Author Unknown
 



 Little Snowdrop

The world may never notice
If a Snowdrop doesn't bloom,
Or even pause to wonder
If the petals fall too soon.
But every life that ever forms,
Or ever comes to be,
Touches the world in some small way
For all eternity.
The little one we long for
Was swiftly here and gone.
But the love that was then planted
Is a light that still shines on.
And though our arms are empty,
Our hearts know what to do.
Every beating of our hearts
Says of our love for you.
~ Author Unknown

Ivan

Here is my sweet little angel.  More pictures to come later.  I love him!

Both Grandmas!

Sweetie and Bemy

Harris

Harris is growing so fast ! He can now roll over and is very talkative !

Definitely not lacking fun factor! Love these kids❤️

Temple Visit